Monday, May 22, 2017

May 22nd, 2017 Almost Tweets Only

May 22nd, 2017 Almost Tweets Only

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded today's water goal, and I stayed well connected with good support.

After a really long day, I'm opting to let the tweets take it the rest of the way!

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Sunday, May 21, 2017

May 21st, 2017 The Way It Was

May 21st, 2017 The Way It Was

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with solid support.

I slept well last night. You know that feeling when you wake and notice the difference? Like, yeah--that was good sleep. Everything like this--every experience is compared to the way it was. And honestly, with sleep and everything else, the way it was wasn't ever good. At my heaviest, the best sleep I could find was sitting upright. I suppose that's why I spent so many hours sleeping in my recliner. Sadly, my two daughters have vivid memories of dad constantly asleep in the recliner, because the nights in bed with extreme and for the longest time, untreated sleep apnea, were exhausting. At a healthy weight, my sleep is fine--sure, I don't get enough most of the time, but I can't blame my physical condition.

The list of health improvements is a very long list. The lab results on Thursday were better than I expected and night and day different than my previous 500-pound years.

These things are things I'd often use for my positive visualizations throughout my transformation. Taking a break, closing your eyes, and imagining the possibilities in as much vivid detail as you can muster--makes a profound difference. Sometimes in the beginning or in the middle of it, it's hard to imagine life any different than the moment--but imagining, visualizing where you're headed helps bring it to life because it serves as a powerful reminder of why you're doing what you're doing--and it also helps you believe it's possible. If you can dream it, you can do it. I started dreaming my transformation from Day 1.

Dreams come true.

Don't give up. Ever. Please.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Saturday, May 20, 2017

May 20th, 2017 Through Another's Lens

May 20th, 2017 Through Another's Lens

Good planning is essential to continued stability within my maintenance plan. Today's schedule put two broadcasts back to back with a thirty-minute separation. This was just enough time for me to opt for an on-plan lunch out instead of a backup food plan from my man-bag. I called the restaurant (my favorite Mexican place) ahead of time and my usual was ready upon arrival. I made it home early evening, grabbed a short refresher nap--and woke in time for some quality time with my grandson Noah before preparing dinner.

We visited with mom tonight at the nursing center. Noah put on a show for his grandma complete with a high energy dance routine. That little man has super amounts of energy!

I'm following some good advice tonight and opting to drop in bed earlier than normal for a Saturday night. This will help keep my Sunday on an even schedule. I've had considerable issues with severely tilting my Sundays of late by staying up excessively late.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my water goal, and I stayed connected with good support contacts.

It was a successful day.

Body-image perspective is a very interesting thing. The car dealership where I was broadcasting today posted a video of the activities--and in it, they panned across the showroom floor and there I was interviewing the American Legion representative. Even after being at maintenance weight range for a long time, I still don't fully perceive my body size in line with reality. My brain says I should look a little bigger than I do. I noticed the video and was surprised. I know it's me...and I'm happy and grateful to be in maintenance mode at a healthy weight, but it's still strange to see myself through another's lens. This is a zoomed-in screenshot of that video:
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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Friday, May 19, 2017

May 19th, 2017 Joyful Voice

May 19th, 2017 Joyful Voice

The last two days have included a very challenging schedule for me. Luckily, we've dodged storms both nights, so it wasn't as difficult as it could have been. Still, by the time I arrived home tonight, I was determined to grab an hour nap. I ended it forty-five minutes in with my oldest grandson's joyful voice in front of me--He may be the only person on the planet that can wake me after such a short nap without me projecting some grumpiness.

Thank you for the wonderful congrats on the fasting blood lab results! A report like that is such a big deal to me because of where I was at over 500 pounds--and perhaps more importantly, where I was headed. The only thing that wasn't optimal in yesterday's report was my Vitamin D levels--and for that, he suggested 2000 international units of Vitamin D, daily.  My doctor takes it too, every day.

Tomorrow is a busy broadcast day with six hours of location broadcasts, I'll practice the 3 P's--Plan, Prepare, and Pack--That'll ensure I have what I need, where I need, and when I need.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded today's water goal, and I stayed connected with good support contacts.

Letting the Tweets handle the rest of the way...

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Thursday, May 18, 2017

May 18th, 2017 Blessed and Grateful

May 18th, 2017 Blessed and Grateful

I was thinking it was about two months since my last maintenance weigh-in. A couple people asked about it--and my reply, "it's been a couple months" was off by almost a month and a half. I checked prior to this morning's weigh-in at the doctor's office and was surprised. My last weigh-in was February 9th's 207.2. Today was 209.4.
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I was surprised to see a brand new high-tech scale in place of the one I've used for a very long time--but that's okay. I was assured that this one was much better than the old scale. This number represents a 2.2 pound gain since February 9th. I can live with 209. Today's weight also represents a small 2.4 pound gain since May 4th, 2016's 207. I'm okay with this fluctuation window!

I did my weigh-in this morning and my blood work lab report appointment this afternoon. The lab work results came back wonderful.

Blood pressure was 118/70
Pulse: 58
Total Cholesterol: 177
LDL Cholesterol: 112
HDL (the good kind): 56.6
A1C: 5.6
Blood Sugar: 85.5
Triglycerides: 44

Liver and thyroid was great, too. I couldn't have been more pleased. I'm blessed and very grateful. 

It's been a super long day. My schedule called for me to be in and out a few times today--and that made it a longer day, then severe weather coverage made it even longer.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded today's water goal, and I stayed connected with great support.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

May 17th, 2017 Back To Work

May 17th, 2017 Back To Work

Last night's storms dissipated quickly. I was still out until 1am, but with the day off from the studio, the alarm was set a little later.

I had a business trip in Tulsa scheduled for today. The drive was easy--and a perfect opportunity for me to have wonderful phone conversations with close support contacts. My food strategy today involved packing a backup plan for the road--just in case. We ended up having lunch at a Mexican restaurant--and if you know me, you know that's my number one pick for easy menu navigation. When the lunch discussion came up, I simply asked about good Mexican restaurants in the area...and of course--yes, most every city around here has that one Mexican place everyone raves about--and that's where we dined. I brought home my backup plan food, untouched. But it helps me stay on plan just in case--if lunch hadn't been a part of the plan, or if the menu was too difficult to navigate--I would have had what I needed. It's actions like this that help me maintain a good measure of stability.

It's back to work tomorrow. I also have my big doctor's appointment tomorrow afternoon to go over my complete blood workup profile. And I'll be weighing in tomorrow! I haven't weighed in a very long time--over two months, actually. It'll be interesting to find out where that number sits.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed well connected with solid support.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Tuesday, May 16, 2017

May 16th, 2017 On Target

May 16th, 2017 On Target

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, and I stayed connected with good support contacts.

A thunderstorm watch until 5am was issued less than an hour ago. Storms are on target for our area and that means I'm headed to work instead of bed.

The plan for tomorrow is to take the day off for a meeting in Tulsa. I'm hoping I'm not up all night. The planned schedule may require changing if that happens.

My thoughts and prayers for the people of Elk City, Oklahoma tonight. This complex of storms dropped a devastating tornado there earlier this evening.

Letting the Tweets take it the rest of the way...

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Monday, May 15, 2017

May 15th, 2017 Epiphany Day Anniversary

May 15th, 2017 Epiphany Day Anniversary

Today is a red letter date for me. It was three years ago today that I experienced what I'll always refer to as "Epiphany Day." In essence, it was the day I finally realized the truest source for my self-worth, identity, happiness, and joy. These things were no longer tied to something that naturally fluctuates. These things were no longer found externally. These things could exist and flourish regardless of my weight, the size of my bank account, my relationship status, or any other external circumstance.

My initial 275-pound weight loss was supposed to "make me" happy. And it didn't. And I'm glad it didn't, because it would have been an illusion of happiness and illusions eventually reveal their truth one way or another. It was working through this monumental let-down that helped me discover what I truly believe is a major element of real happiness.

It wasn't an accident that Epiphany Day came not long after starting the turnaround from my 164-pound relapse/regain. I feel like it was Devine intervention, as if to say-- here, look at it this way and be free. Lose the weight because you're taking extraordinary care of yourself--not in an effort to obtain some magical level of happiness, but simply because you're worth every ounce of effort in this care. You deserve this level of care. 

I stopped searching for something I already possessed. I'm not writing about happiness itself, I'm writing about the capacity--the ability to choose happiness regardless of whether or not I possessed the things I felt certain were requirements for such a revelation.

Anyway--this day, very powerful for me.

You can read May 15th, 2014 Epiphany Day simply by clicking here.

And May 19th's entry four days after Epiphany Day expands on the thoughts and ideas that haven't left my brain since.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my daily water goal, I enjoyed a great workout at the YMCA, and I stayed connected with excellent support contacts.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Sunday, May 14, 2017

May 14th, 2017 The Good Stuff

May 14th, 2017 The Good Stuff

Regarding yesterday's under budget/tilted food schedule day, anonymous writes:

"Am I reading this correctly that you came in 600 calories under your budget today? This concerns me as you are already so thin (you look great, not TOO thin). I have seen a few other times when you are 400 or so calories under your budget. Question: if the calorie budget has integrity, isn't being so far under budget a breach of that, just as much as it would be going 400-600 over? If I am reading this wrong please disregard. I don't mean to judge at all. I am worried about a pattern of disregarding the budget and it impacting your health."

Thank you for the compliment, A--I feel very well! Good question, good point. I think the important thing I remember is that a few occasional lower calorie days aren't going to make a giant impact. If hitting my calorie budget means eating a 600 calorie meal at midnight, I'd rather just go to bed and try to maintain a better-planned schedule the next day. Sleeping incredibly late was a luxury this weekend--and I enjoyed it immensely, but it does have consequences on my eating schedule. The thing about maintaining the integrity of my budget, to me--means I'm not exceeding the budget--which means I'm NOT using food as a drug. Now, if these lower calorie days become a regular habit, then it will require some serious consideration. Coming from where I've been, this is a nice "issue" to have.

I did eat a late dinner tonight--with a four-hour separation between meals, which is pretty much the minimum separation I feel comfortable doing. I actually slept in a little too much this morning, more than I planned, and that's created a later night than I planned--and that'll present challenges tomorrow, I'm sure.

I suppose the point of it all is: I have some work to do. And really--there will always be work to do. If ever I get to the point where I think it's perfect, that's when I'm in trouble! There's much room for improvement and challenges for me every single day. Some of the challenges have been long and lingering--hanging out waiting for me to take action, and others pop up new, from time to time.

We had a wonderful family get-together this early evening in celebration of Mother's Day. It was at mom's favorite homestyle restaurant.

This restaurant is one we frequented quite often in my 500 pound days. It's amazing how a shift in focus and perspective changes what a place means to me. In the "old days," my focus was on ordering the most calorie dense specialties on the menu--heck, I'd eat 500 calories or more worth of rolls and butter before the meal arrived--then I'd keep eating until I felt miserable. My focus back then wasn't on the loved ones around me, it was squarely on the plate. Now, I can go to this same place, navigate the menu within the boundaries of my plan, and truly enjoy the people around me-- the food becomes secondary--the main attraction isn't the rolls and gravy, it's the visiting, conversation, laughs, and experiences shared. It's about the good stuff. Different from what I considered "the good stuff," all those years ago.

Some pictures of our Mother's Day event:

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Let's do Mother's Day selfies!

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I just love the expressions on mom's and Noah's face...and little Oliver resting peacefully--oblivious to the celebration around him!

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My girls and me!

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My newest grandson, Oliver, having his Mother's Day meal.

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Mom and me.

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I met today's water goal, and I stayed connected with good support contacts. I didn't make my goal of getting to the Y today for a good workout.

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean

Saturday, May 13, 2017

May 13th, 2017 Once In A While

May 13th, 2017 Once In A While

Today: I maintained the integrity of my maintenance calorie budget, I remained refined sugar-free, I exceeded my water goal, I worked out at the YMCA, and I stayed connected with good support.

I also slept over 10 hours last night! It wildly tilted my food schedule today, but I'm okay with that once in a while.

I took mom to the store this afternoon and met my oldest daughter for dinner this evening--or lunch, we couldn't decide what to call it. I was able to get some work done this evening.

I'm relaxing tonight and surprisingly, I'm tired and ready to drop!

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Thank you for reading and your continued support,
Strength,
Sean





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